A tornado in my head

It's been a while.

It is strange to write these words since these posts are mostly for myself, but I feel like I have to apologize (to myself) for not balancing my life properly.

Not complaining! I have certainly nothing to complain about. Just somewhat tired.

I was writing yesterday to a colleague/friend/cool-guy that I had been off the radar because I was living in a world "undergoing a 2 year extended global tornado season", and it made sense.

The only thing that I now understand more clearly is that the tornadoes are not in the world, they are in my head.

It is not what's happening outside that derails me, it is what's happening inside my head. The only thing that truly has the ability to affect me.

So in the end I think I do need to apologize but mostly I need to apologize because I have not been prioritizing the winds going crazy inside my head.

Let's try to do better.