Calmness is not to be found in any map

I am longing for calmness.

The sense that all is good, taken care off, in some sort of equilibrium.

No open action items, nothing waiting for my inputs, no todoist, no long lists in emails for all the stuff we had to do (and did not get to do).

The sense that you can enjoy from doing nothing, absolutely nothing.

The problem is that I am not sure that place exists any longer, at least not for me, and definitely not in the in the near future (10 - 15 years from now).

Life is a long race, and I know I am running at a good pace, but some days it's hard to keep it up.

I wish there was such a stop along the way... But there isn't.

And so, I am back to running, no time to spare in this race!