The Actor in the Mirror

I get to talk sometimes with groups of people. It can be groups of 3 to 10 people in a meeting, or groups from 20 to 200 people on a web session, even groups of 500+ people in conferences.

During my whole career I have always been afraid these people catch the fact that I am really what I appear to be when "on stage". I read that this is called The Impostor Syndrome.

But Impostor is a hard word, I think I would rather prefer to be called an Actor to an Impostor.

I do not want to cause any harm to others, I am just playing a role in a complex world.

A role I have learned and practiced for a long time.

A role I know by heart, where every line I say is not only something I know but something I believe in.

A role, where it becomes harder and harder to differentiate between the actor and the person. Because both the actor and the person believe in the same things, think in the same way, and act in precise synchronization...

Maybe, in the end, there is no actor. Maybe, from the beginning, there never was one.